Your heart draws you down a path that resonates deep in your soul as the right and true way. Terrifying and exhilarating all at once; somehow this path holds the promise of a joy-filled and fruitful life. A life of purpose and hope. Yet even as your heart yearns for what’s ahead, your mind and emotions revolt. Fear, doubt, and an overwhelming desire for what’s comfortable and familiar tempt you to turn back, yet your heart persists in drawing you forward. In front of you stand multiple, gigantic boulders that completely obstruct the path. Try as you may, you see no way around them. You are stuck where you are. You’ll never be able to reach the purpose and joy that the path promises – the obstacles are insurmountable.
Truth dawns afresh in your heart as you realize the obstacles are within you. The darkest most hidden places. The places of sin that you’ve never been able to conquer, the temptations that won’t quiet, the pain and grief you’ve suffered, the shame that won’t subside, and the fear that paralyzes you. All your life you’ve been trying to move these stones. Some won’t budge an inch, while others you think you’ve moved only to run into them all over again. Pressing in around you, they threaten to crush you under their weight.
Downcast, defeated, and desperate to move forward, you suddenly realize that you’re not alone. A man robed in glory with scars on his hands and feet is standing next to you. You look at him, drawn to an infinite depth of love and compassion in his eyes. In that moment the tiniest spark of hope ignites in your heart. Has He been standing right here all along? Somehow you know He has, you just couldn’t see Him. Or maybe you wouldn’t see Him. Did you refuse or were you blinded somehow? As you look into his eyes, you know that the reason doesn’t matter. There is forgiveness and acceptance in his gaze. He reaches out his hand toward yours, but stops short of touching you. You understand. It’s an invitation – one you are free to accept or reject. You look from his scarred hand back into his eyes and feel your heart quaking inside your chest. How can someone look so kind and yet so fierce at the same time? Uncertainty and self-doubt wrap their fingers around your heart and for a moment you want to turn away or squeeze your eyes tightly shut. As your heart fights for freedom you realize without a doubt that your only seed of hope in this world is in the warmth of those eyes. With a shuddering breath, you slowly reach out your hand until you’re nearly touching Him.
Heart pounding, you feel as though you’re hesitating at the edge of a cliff, about to jump. His lips don’t move, but a still small voice that seems to speak out of the depth of his eyes whispers,
I am the way…
With one last ragged breath your heart leaps in surrender and you grab hold of Him. You expect to feel as though you are free falling, having relinquished your control. Instead you feel strong arms wrap around you and hold you firm. A warm rush of peace surges through you from the top of your head to the tips of your fingers and toes. A peace you never knew was possible. A peace that defies all logic and understanding.
Your eyes settle once more on the boulders obstructing your path. The voice, quiet yet mighty, again speaks into your heart.
I have carried the weight of the world’s sin, even the darkest and most wicked of deeds have rested on my shoulders. I have conquered sin, and I have defeated death itself. No stone could hold Me in that tomb. There is no obstacle that is insurmountable for Me.
Suddenly you feel a new strength fill you. You can’t explain how it’s possible, but his strength and power seem to have been bestowed upon you. You feel them spill forth from your heart and fuel your will. He’s somehow on the inside of you, working through your very own hands. What an astonishing mystery this is! Moving the boulders takes time and determination, but you are actually moving them! Sometimes the work is bitterly painful, but you press on as you see the path opening before you.
You begin to move forward, but are soon discouraged that the boulders are always within your sight – looming in the periphery. At times you even stray from the path and walk right into them again! In frustration you cry out, “How do I eliminate these boulders altogether? Will I ever be really rid of them? Isn’t your power great enough to remove all trace of them?”
My power is made perfect in weakness…
“But I don’t want to be weak! Won’t I serve you better by being strong?”
These are your memorial stones. Set them up as a monument lest you forget. I have made a way through the broken places, but they remain in view to remind you where you’ve come from, where you’re going, and whose power moved them from your path. If they were to vanish like fog after a sunrise, your heart would be forgetful and you’d fall away from this path to one of self-indulgence and ease. These stones remind you of what was beyond them that made moving them worth the struggle. Greater still, these stones are what connect you to other travelers. Your lives, like transparent overlays, will sometimes overlap, and for a season your journeys will be down the same path. When others looks around, they may see your stones and ask, “What are those?” A choice will lie before you – to deny there is anything there and cover up the battles you’ve fought, or choose to share your story and bring hope to another and glory to My name. In your stones others will see a reflection of their own obstacles and hopelessness. There are many whose eyes are still closed to Me. You can show them I’m here if you’ll let Me use these hard places we’ve moved together.
A realization lights on your mind and settles into the depths of your being. When the way was obstructed you sensed there was purpose and a fruitful, joy-filled life beyond the stones that blocked your way. At that time you believed you would only find it if the stones no longer existed. The truth is now crystal clear. The stones themselves are integral strands in the fabric of that purpose. The fruitfulness is in sharing the One whose strength can move them. And the joy is in seeing your most suffocating darkness being used to bring liberating light to a world lost in the shadows of their own stones.